so i'll be traveling along the road and come to the crux ansata of a matter. decision-making time. and honestly, the choice used to be easy or i should say...knee-jerk because there was always that element of self sacrifice. i would stick around because i knew that person needed me. or even because i needed them and was afraid to go it alone. i've never been the most gregarious, social person...but i tend to want at least one person in my corner that i can go to...lean on.
but these days i find myself having to be strong. and grown. Up on game. by my lonesome. pushing away lame situations that don't honor what the Universe wants for me or what i want for mySelf. call it narcissistic if you like, but it is I that matters most. if not i'm not present and accounted for then i start snoring. my life falls into disrepair.
so i have to care enough to maintain a stance that has me ready to dance with righteous partners. i've noticed that as soon as i resolve to change, the big picture rearranges itself. i find it damn fascinating.
i'm prone to ride and swerve at times...trying to find the proper velocity at which to pursue that mirage of what could be. i'm always gratified when i make it to my destination.
even if it really is only a rest stop.
Posted by Lisa at March 15, 2009 01:47 PM