my decembers are always interesting. after doing a smashing job of playing the good girl all year long, i tend to unclothe near the end. just in time to be Nu. everything's all golden hues and surreal experiments...um experience. and yes. i get into some shit.
this time was no different. see what had happened was...i met this dude. cute. very. kinda scary how quickly i waxed on. inner wick all lit and i'm talking shit. on the phone. but when alone? that feeling of Home knocked me off balance. he was challenging this notion I had of mySelf. felt like someone else. all girly and unsure. but...
i adjusted.
and you know, i saw it all. red flags and flashing lights. proceeded with caution, at first. but then i grew thirsty. water befell my dried longing. the ground became fertile and there were seeds that wanted to bud and bloom. i knew he wasn't my groom. my Sun. my One.
but i had fun anyway because..it was warranted. here were two souls that looked at each other and said, hey i know you! true enough there are obstacles, but let's see what oui can do.
i took a chance and had a whirlwind dalliance. wrapped up quite neatly right as the year drew to a close. no stress, no strife. he's back home with wifey and i'm alright. because i was always aware and awake. therefore i shake off any chaff and examine the wheat. my findings: the real thing is sweeter than any dream. thusly, a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down.
now i'm Up for anything.
Posted by Lisa at January 1, 2009 04:48 PM