if i multiply myself by mySelf.

When a friend of mine told me I believe you could be an ubermensch I was all like "pshaw!" (I'm a pro at humility.) But the thing is...I don't believe that anything anyone says to you is an accident. Sometimes it's a message embedded within a message that the mind has to work over time to decode, and sometimes it's just a blatant kick in the ass. But to receive knowledge that is crafted solely for your personal evolution, you have to be open. You have to believe that there is a higher power that is not so much controlling the show...just lovingly guiding you to the spaces and places you need to be.

I believe. Because of that I am constantly granted a chance to see from the Big G's perspective. I see that everything is about love...even when it hurts. Pain becomes joy if you learn how to injoy it. Apply the cosmic sense of humor that lives within us all. And know that it is only temporary. Just an experience...suffering. From above, all that we experience looks like a Sims game with the free will turned on. Those of you who have played know damn well the greatest pleasure you get is by causing trouble. Yeah you may have the nuclear family and the white picket fence, but I'd be willing to bet eventually you'll have one of the spouses cheating with the neighbor.

Why? Because art imitates life. And life is about living and getting into it full-on and righteously...bad or good. Earth is not some hell in disguise; despite what the conspiracy theorists spout on and on about. It is a place for growth and evolution...a playground for souls that want the temporal joy of a physical body. So though you may feel alone; you are always watched. Enjoyed for who you are in every moment. And loved in a way that perhaps some of you can't process or fully feel...

which may be why y'all act the way you do. lol.

But even that doesn't bother me anymore. I watch all the protesting and arguing of points and frantic scurrying of humanity with amusement. You call this Chaos? Ha. And it's revolution alright...just a repeat of a different age for which the ending will be the same because no one wants to fuckinG change their insides. No surprise that we can't get along.

that's why I'd rather get away from it all.

Finding one's true self creates a sort of superego. Nothing about superiority or power over others...all about a supreme confidence that stems from knowing who you are and what you are really here to do...beyond your energy-draining 9 to 5. You transform - person to being; matter protected by spiritual shield that draws those that can relate and pushes away those who cannot.

It is for that reason that one has to temporarily be the lone wolf. First of all, because knowing thyself requires time away from worldly things. And secondly, because being Self rather than a personality, or some character fashioned according to the demands of the outside world is just not the norm at this point in time. Proclaiming absolute me-ness is the exception, not the rule. A great being once said "The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not seem to belong to anybody. No organization confines him, no community, no society, no nation."

I resist confinement and I am intense because I know that is what I was put here for. I don't care that for many, my show has sorta jumped the shark. They don't get it anymore. Why should it bother me that they don't have ears to hear the worthy things I have to say? I don't mind playing Sula. The outcast nobody that didn't become somebody until she decided to go out into the world...

and then bring the experience back Home. Her life became spiritual fuel for the eternal flame.

So yeah I'll be that trailblazer, because I know that though O.G. loves us all equally, S(he) gets more of a kick out of we fearless types. The questioners. The antagonists. The hippies. The rebels. The 9s. The round pegs cutting a swath through all these damn squares. The Ones that opened up and swallowed the medicine, which though at first tastes right nasty...eventually feels like a pound of the sweetest cheeba flowing through the veins...

I'll be back later to speak on Game. that I got Up on.

Posted by Lisa at November 19, 2008 09:00 PM