April 20, 2008
those were the days. but now...
experiencing good will
acting kindly or charitably
doing a good turn for another
sharing what you have
having a noble impulse
receiving a gift
feeling blessed
being well-intentioned
enjoying innocence
feeling simple contentment
surrounding yourself with goodness
being blissfully unaware
having a clear conscience
shunning corruption
being acquitted
appreciating simple joys
focusing on childhood
being with a child or young person
feeling carefree
being taken care of
feeling nostalgic
indulging in play
enjoying youthful activities
having a baby
Life is as fluid as...mourning a death one day, and celebrating one a few days later. And doing each thing with verve, knowing you exist in the flow.
The past few days I've been reminded of my past, but not in a chafing way. Just remembering the ones I used to know, and how I used to be, comparing how I am now...and realizing that the two are not that far apart. I've come full circle, shrugging off an identity constructed of past hurts, messes, and phobias (i still have my princess di complex though!). I dug down deep and brought ME back and...I'm not even sure if this is a chick that a lot of folks remember or know; she's been gone that damn long.
But yeah it's me - loves music, loves to dance, unabashed singer in the rain/sleet/snow/sun, goofy, nerdy, rapier wit, quicksilver mind; and yes quite fine, if I do say so myself. LOL. Everything of the then but now even stronger, riper, better; and fastly moving towards best.
And yes I did mourn when my old self died. Never let it be said I didn't play the Daria role to the hilt. When my friends would ask me what happened to the "old" Lisa years ago; or say they missed her, I would reply, "me too." Or go into the 39483948 reasons why she was gone.
Who could have known she was just waiting for the right time to come back?
Surprise, surprise. The energy each sunrise brings.
Posted by Lisa at April 20, 2008 02:35 AM