November 06, 2007
divine and conquer
From yesterday:
The World card suggests that my alter ego is The Conqueror, whose superpower lies in graduation to the next level. Today I am free. I have accomplished my mission and feel on top of the world. I will enjoy the experience to its fullest. I have come full circle on my path to success. My job is done, my dream fulfilled, and I have them eating out of my hands. Accept and embrace the journey taken. It has served great purpose in my growing wiser and stronger, and has provided a sense of relief in that now it's complete.
Shooot, now that's what I'm talkin' bout! And yes this year has been super rough and indeed I've experienced many tests of faith/fate. The cool thing is - there's no such thing as failure. Only an opportunity to review and try again. Looking at this way, most assuredly made the experience that much more valuable. Now, I would hardly hazard to say that I've attained the zenith, but the past months had to at least have been the level in Super Mario right before you get to the Princess.
Now that one hump is conquered, I'm certain much cooler games lay ahead.
Someone told me that unlike me, they aren't trying to see everything as all good. At the time, I felt a bit mortified and out of sorts. I mean, what was I doing trying to play Pollyanna when I'd been Negative Nancy for the vast majority of my life? So, not being secure in my new self, I backslid into that world of duality...which was not at all difficult. Only took a few rounds before I began to realize how real and how deep the law of attraction is. When I'm in love with the world, the world is in love with me. Dappled light and trees green glistening even in the throes of autumn. More work and opportunities than I know what to do with. The universe loves to gift. And eventually I learned to receive in love.
And when I'm not feeling too hot...it all falls down. Looks brittle and so dull in comparison to those glimpses I'd been given of a different reality. My joints ache, everyone sucks, and I can barely scrape up the minimum needed to engage in some vice that would take me away from it all.
I realized I would have to make a choice - choose the reality everyone around me was comfortable with, or the one that appealed most to me. And you know, everyone has to do that eventually. Everyone has to get self-aware and responsible like that. Realize that life be nothing but a direct and non-judgmental reflection of everything you feel and believe inside.
This was a concept that came to me in bits and pieces over time; I suppose the possibility had been seeded in my consciousness from birth; just waiting for the right moment to bloom. When I wrote about Zion, all I was doing was tapping into divine possibilities; not the limited cadre of possible life stories that 3d living offers. The difference between now and and a year ago is that I don't just ruminate on the faraway possibility; I believe that the time is now to choose. Every moment I'm making a choice about how I want my story to go.
Great power and even greater responsibility; this life scripting thing.
Excerpt from The Holographic Universe, by Michael Talbot (paraphrased for conciseness):
Snow believes that there are several potential futures, or holoverses, forming in the gathering mists of fate. But like other past-life researchers he also believes we create our own destiny, both individually and collectively, and thus the (projected) scenarios are really a glimpse into the various potential futures the human race is creating for itself en masse.
"If we are continually shaping our future physical reality by today's collective thoughts and actions, then the time to wake up to the alternative we have created is now," states Snow. "The choices between the kind of Earth represented by each of the Types are clear. Which do we want for our grandchildren? Which do we want perhaps to return to ourselves someday?"
Choose your own adventure...wisely.