The truth is inescapable, but it can be avoided for a while. And that's what I've done; attributing that antsy, spooked horse feeling to numerous things, but none of them the right thing. This fearfulness has nothing to do with when the bomb will drop, the effects of my physical transformation on general society or my readiness to deal with impending success.
No, this is about that other thing I saw in the cards. The fork and the important relationship. It is a fear that stems not from insecurity, but from glimpses of the future.
You're about to enter an inner sanctum of the matrix that I have no wish to follow you into. It's too loud and too bright in there, and just enough of that light is blinding enough to distort perception - of self and others. It's a different world from even this world. Different is putting it lightly. I think it has the power to change everything, even souls. Typically, not for the better. And though we say we can disconnect; unplug as we wish...I wonder. I wonder if the sensation and the imagery is overwhelming enough that you choose not to. After all, everyone says (thinks) it's better there.
"I just want to know what it's like," some folks say. I'm all for experimentation; but I feel that to be mainline territory. Distributed via aorta. All inhalation; no puffing and blowing allowed. Even stepping stones can morph into full-blown paths if we're not careful. Ways of life can change in an eye's blink and the way can be lost. Having searched so long for it, I can hardly imagine such a thing...but know it's possible.
Even with the crossroad near, I feel not powerless. There's sufficient strength to be still and keep watch. Listen. Take care. Help when needed. And most importantly...have faith.
I just worry sometimes. Even supreme beings do that.
Posted by Lisa at February 3, 2007 03:12 PM