Life is just moving along...and it seems I'm not being given the option of standing still. But that's ok though...I'm grateful for movement and change; stagnancy was never becoming to me.
I said at the beginning of the year that 2006 was going to be entirely different for me. I felt that...some subtle shift in the way of things. Yes I was precognitive enough to brace myself, but there's really no protection against transformation, is there? And I've felt it, as I barrel my way into a new age bracket. Have hurt because of it, but also known exceeding joy.
And there's more a-coming. I get this strong sense that before this year is over, things are going to get a bit shaken and stirred. I'm somewhat afraid, because man....my life is soap opera material at its finest. But yet and still there's anticipation...what else can I become?
I keep having this recurring dream. It's never clear but I get impressions of the situation. There are two men...I know them both, but I get the sense that I know one better than the other. And I'm always being placed in situations where I'm forced to compare the two. One is so much obviously superior but yet I'm drawn to the one I know isn't best for me. And the good one...he works so hard to show me that I'm deserving of...everything. Yet I struggle to believe it. Feel as if I should just stick to what's...manageable.
Dreams imitate life I suppose.
But if that's the case, some SHIT is about to go down.
Lordy.
Posted by Lisa at November 18, 2006 02:53 AM